LIFE SUCKS.
PERIOD.

THE WORST DECISION IN MY LIFE WAS TO EVER DECIDE TO COME TO
NUS HIGH SCHOOL OF MATHEMATICS AND SCIENCE.

Perhaps to many of the students, it was a good choice. it was, their break, their big chance. It's an opportunity for them to get a straight route to uni, which they wouldnt have gotten elsewhere or if they stayed in their previous school. To me however, it's a fucking downgrade. And that's not just in terms of academics.

i wouldnt miss my classmates when i leave. well, maybe some. and that's probably the cheerleaders. Not anyone else. Because the school's so great at jumping to conclusions, cheerleaders are branded bimbos. It's a given tag, because we live in a school full of geeks who have all day dreamed of being 'cool' but never got around to it, and girl cliques who are so obsessed with themselves and whatsover girl power and eww-boys-suck kind of childish mentality. And the worse thing about co-ed schools is that you have jealousy and weird sparks flying around cos of the boy-girl thing.

I came here expecting to see kids smarter than me. To learn new ways of learning. To discover stuff on my own. Not to learn how to copy, or learn how to mug/regurgitate from textbooks. Seriously, that's so primary school. I used to think that a score below 260 is really bad and you won't get anywhere in life. But i guess life deals in second chances too. So I lowered this thinking alot, because of the standard of our school, seeing the majority thinks that a score above 250 is 'really good'.

Well, i'm not criticising the students for your score. I said my sister was stupid cos she scored 257 and i laughed in her face for it, but i take it back now, because she's relatively smart compared to our students. The students may be smart, yes, but imo, the standard of the entire school is so bad.

I wonder if i'll get anywhere in life staying in a highschool like this. Because back in nanyang, never have i once doubted my own future. It's either IP/BSP-HCJC then off to some prestigious ivy-league university with some scholarship, or O levels with fantastic results then RJC/HCJC to some university. NUS was really one of the ...... last resort type of choice. Meaning, there would be no reason for me not to get in. Not saying there is for me now, but chances are so much more limited.

I wonder how lysh felt when i left nanyang for this school. I guess she must have felt pretty hurt too, cos we didn't keep in contact much after that. We still talk, sometimes. And we tried an email-ing system but for some weird reason she never got my emails ): so it didn't work out too. But her recent sms made me so sad cos i missed her so much. So, i'll go out with her sometime soon. And, we'll try to make the email thing work out again ^^

really an abrupt/weird ending. But my thoughts were somehow disrupted when i went outstide to eat yumi sweets ^^